Oh the freaking joys of life.

(Sorry this is a little mad, pissed off, upset at the world today kind of post.) So today Devon decided that he would see what his hand would do if he cut it with a box opener. Needless to say after an hour and a half in the E.R. and 13 stitches later he has decided that it wasn't the best of ideas. All I can say is I'm done. Ever since November it seems like things sort of get better then life decides to hit us in the face again and again. I'm tired of it. Plus when I think that I am getting medical bills and other types of bills paid off once again I've got more piling up. My biggest goal in life is to get everything paid off have money in savings for emergencies just like today but when you constantly have things coming up and they just keep adding up instead of going down it never seems to happen.

I've been feeling really bumbed lately because once again this month aunt flow showed her ugly smiling face. Honestly out of anything in this whole world the only thing I want more than anything is to be a mom. A real mom where I have my own baby and I get to post pictures of my baby. (for those of you who do read my blog and have children please know that I am not mad at you for having children I just need to vent) It makes me sick to think that the only pictures that I have of my baby are the ones that I got the day she was born. That's it. I don't get the first grade pictures, I don't get to see her prom pictures, I don't get to see her get married. So if you do have children please remember what a blessing you have in your life and never take for granted. You most likely will never experiance the heartache that Devon and I have. So the next time you want to complain that you had to stay up late or your baby was tired and crying all day ect ect just remember what a blessing they are and be grateful for the fact that you get to have you baby because you never know when life might slap you in the face. Once again I'm sorry for the negative post but honestly I needed to vent and get it out.