So for the past 2 weeks or so I have been contemplating the thoughts of what I should do as a new hobby. A few things have crossed my mind but I am now going to give crochet a try. My Grandma Allen has been dejunking her house and came across a ton of books that she has collected over the years of crocheting. I am really excited about it. I am hoping that it gives me something to focus my time on and its something that I can do at work when I am not taking calls. It will also give me something to do when Devon is playing his WII. I am really excited it.
So today at church we had 2 baby blessings, and needless to say I couldn't even sit through it. I got up and left before it started and made it out to the hall before breaking down and crying. Devon came out with me because he didn't want me to be alone. I am so grateful that I have him. He has been so supportive and understanding. I am also really grateful to my Mom, she has been so willing to drop everything when I have needed her, I really do have the BEST family in the world. I'm not sure if I'll ever make it through a blessing again. I am also having a really hard time being happy for those who have had their babies. Not that I would ever want anyone to go through what we have with Brynn but I just cannot find it in my heart to be happy for them. Maybe some day that will change.
3 comments:
I bet it was hard to hear the baby blessings at church. I probably would have gotten up also. Happy you have such a wonderful and supportive family!
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Time gives new perspective. The way you feel now will change over time. I cried all the way thru the baby blessing we had in our ward. But I also know who is in charge. Change is the one thing you can count on. Remember If nothing ever changed there would be no butterflies. Love Mom
Jenna, I cannot even imagine how hard that would be. You are handleing this with much more strengh than I know I ever could!
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